Aaand my month-long hiatus is over. Pardon me, once again life happened. I have finally seen the light and it feels great knowing things can go back to the way they were. But here’s the thing: I don’t want things to go back to exactly the way they were. The month of May has made me realize so much, and mostly, it made me realize that change is inevitable. There has been a lot of speculation about my life lately (if you follow me on Twitter, you prolly have an idea what I’m talking about), and maybe it’s time to clear things up.
In the zone or in denial. Same difference. At the end of the day, we all know the truth. You can go ahead and tell others your side of story, that’s your call — whatever gets you to sleep at night. But let us not forget that God knows who speaks the truth and karma is an affliction that progresses in the sneakiest fashion.
And for someone claiming to be quiet, THINK AGAIN. Your mouth is full of shit dude. Oh and honey, if you’re gonna talk and hate, make sure your facts are straight! Seems to me that you want our “word war” to go on, well then my pleasure. :) Yes, I’m dangerous when provoked, I CAN BE THE MOST ANNOYING PERSON YOU’LL EVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH. You just have to do better than that, don’t be boring!!! I thought I made it all clear when we talked about the situation, but it looks like you’ve been thinking I’m gonna (for lack of a better word) STEAL your guy. Suck it up, sweetheart. Real men can’t be stolen — unless they want to. Heck, we were both single that time. I said you can have the guy — the guy is all yours. So why all this rage? Again, I know what I’m after. It’s not him — but the right of my kid. OUR KID. Pffft!
Forgiveness — I guess that’s what this past month has truly been about. People hurt you, lie to you, take you for granted, treat you badly, but eventually you learn to forgive. You learn to forgive because you have your own shortcomings and imperfections. You learn to forgive because life is too short to be angry. You learn to forgive because it is the only way you can move forward. But then again, I only decided to forgive the people who hurt me cos I PITY THEM. That simple. I got 99 problems and dealing with your shit is no longer one. :)
I feel like a zombie. I keep coming back to life even when everyone thinks my life is over. I’ve got so many things going on in my life right now and I know I damn deserve it all. God knows how truly grateful I am for that. :) Seriously, I thank everyone concerned (or not) for the kind and harsh words. I take them as encouragement and challenge. I may not be a contender for the best daughter, sister, friend or girl — but I vowed to be the best Mom to my little Sky. The best thing that happened to me in the darkness of my days.
I don’t have a love life. But I’m loving life, that is. I’d rather go absolutely crazy than absolutely boring. So to all haters out there, I wish you all the best. I have so much more for you to be mad at. Just wait and see. You can’t bring me down, but you can try. :)
And just a reminder: when you don’t know the both sides of the story, don’t judge. Half stories, sometimes lie. So there. Enough with the outburst. Time to move forward — unless a new distraction is cooked up again! LOLJK.