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January. What better way to ring in the New Year than with a blogpost? :) It’s the first day of 2012 and my life and my plans flashed before my eyes. Yes, it’s possible to have a near-death flashback even when you’re not really dying.

I started my year like this… (partying, drinking, beach bumming)

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…and ended up like this: (PREGGERS!)

Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like I planned it, or anticipated it. It was really a shocker. So yeah, anti-climactic endings? The story of my life. A week after getting back from my “vacation” (more like hiatus), I had gone back to zero with M.

Nonetheless, I want to properly divide my life into the past, the present, and the future, and I’m trying so hard to categorize him as part of my past. I don’t want him to be the shadow always hanging over my head, haunting me every time I attempt to move on. I don’t want to hope and mope and whine and pine.

I don’t want to be hurt, because I am, still, and the fact that he didn’t do it on purpose doesn’t cancel it out. I don’t want to be in love with him anymore. Because I can deal with him being the one that got away —- at least that was his choice, his responsibility. But I won’t allow him to be the one who never left my mind because I never tried to forget.

It seemed everything unraveled at such a swift pace for the two of us; it makes no sense that I’m picking up the pieces in slow motion.

So GOODBYE 2011. You were awesome at first but in the end DROVE ME CRAZY! A horrible year for me, I must say, but I’m still grateful.

BRIGHTER. STRONGER. HAPPIER. Let’s just hope and pray for the best this 2012. Yes? YES!!

Happy New Year everyone! :)

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Last post for 2011. Lunchie at Rockwell with my girlies last Wednesday. Sometimes, all you need is to talk to your girl friends who can understand what you’re going through. Spending time with them was really refreshing. I super missed them too!! 

I’m doing it! Another blog post on maternity style. I will definitely remember these days of fabulous largeness. I always love Nicole Richie and Kourtney Kardashian’s sense of style. They could throw whatever on and it would just look great on them. They even looked better than ever when they’re pregnant. This just shows that you could be pregnant and have great style at the same time. From my own experience, wearing fitted clothing not only shows your beautiful bump. But slims you down. Most importantly, you do not need to really eat for two!! Teehee. Well, sometimes.

Although there really is no feeling more glorious than carrying a growing life inside you, it does come with its (well worth it) drawbacks:
1. Your body will NEVER be the same again.
2. You may experience intense nausea, yet somehow need to overeat anyway. (I’ve gone through this during my first four months and gawd it was horrible!)
3. You will feel huge and yucky no matter how good everyone else thinks you look.
4. You will feel 10 degrees hotter than everyone else… which is horrid in the summer time.
5. You will always feel like there’s a lack of decent clothing! (I should know!)

So here are some of my fashion do’s and don’ts for expectant dressing:

Huge thanks Kai for the cute present for my lil princess. :)

That would be all. Happy New Year loves! :)

xx Forever 21 maxi dress| random flip flops| Forever 21 shades| Glitterati necklace xx

Back to blogging! Yes this is my first blogpost, well maternity blogpost for that matter. Teehee. First off, MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Hope you all enjoyed the holidays. :)

There really is no place like home! I am so happy to be home. and for me, the only “perfect” way to celebrate the season is to spend it with people you truly care about.

Glad to see C-bar after like what, six months? We had a super late Lunchie at Conti’s Greenbelt 2, and I must say, I rrrreally had a good time with them! I missed them soooo much!!

Less food photos, more photos of us! :)

Catchin’ up times, I surely missed! OUTFIT SHOT now!

Catchin’ up times, I surely missed! OUTFIT SHOT now!

Nothin’ like wearing a sheer maxi skirt on a steady Tuesday. Love these sandals I got from PrP, it’s super comfy I can wear it the whole day! :)

Till the next post loves!

xx Forever 21 necklace, People are people sandals, top and skirt bought from the Bazaar, random bag from Bangkok xx

A month and a half passed by since my last post, and I must admit, I do miss blogging. The month-long hiatus served as a time for me to think things over and set priorities. So yeah, I’m halfway there —— and there is no greater joy than the one brought by the life in my womb. The remaining months will surely bring me changes and perhaps, a little anxiety. Now, fetal movements are more definite and I’m starting to gain weight, I mean really. Suddenly, the baby feels real; not just a bump in my tummy, but a little person that interacts with the world and me. :)

So will it be a baby Jake or Jessica? Just yesterday I found out its gender. I’m having a baby GIRL!  I really thought it’ll be a boy since I’m too lazy to groom myself like I really don’t care about how I look (you know what they say about those superstitions, teehee). I also had a dream of holding a baby boy at an amusement park so I thought that was it. But you know what, it’s all good. What’s more important is to have a healthy baby, be it a boy or a girl.

Just a few realizations during the past months: 1.Don‘t worry so much. 2. Take everything in stride. 3. Every little thing will have its own time. :) I will absolutely make the best out of this path I’ve decided to take. I will try to be tougher not just for myself, but for my lil Gen —— even without M. Next agenda: buy some stuff for the coming baby girl! I so cannot wait to be home on December 24! Wheeee!!  Till the next post! :)

Guess who’s back! I know it seems like FOREVER since my last post, and the past few months passed me by in a blur. Let’s backtrack a bit, shall we? In a stunning turn of events, I was feeling queasy during my birthday week last August. A trip to Makati Med’s ER didn’t exactly rule out the main reason… So after a week, my family decided to take me to the hospital. AGAIN. I was admitted. as ordered by my gastroenterologist. Assessment and Lab tests followed. In less than an hour, it was confirmed —— I definitely had a bun in the oven. Not some gastro-related trouble.

Yes, I was drinking my life away when suddenly my life took a 180 degree turn. The fam bam was surprised, of course. But none of them raised a voice at me. I didn’t expect that they took the news pretty well. I’m so thankful to have a family like them. My grandma and my Dad, most especially, supported me. They were all very protective of me since day 1. I told my second family (C-bar and Triad) the news immediately —— I want it to come straight from me.

My life has been a series of incidents where I always end up falling short, hoping for something wonderful to happen, but not quite getting there. I may not have a wide array of positive character traits going for me, but I want to be the kind of person who chooses to look on the bright side, and chooses to make things right (even just for now). I have the fam bam and my friends, and they will help me GET THROUGH THIS.

There is much more to life than moping around over someone’s half-assed attempt at “SUPPORTING” me.

I am now in God-knows-where, and I’m cool about it. I left the maddening crowd in Manila, the comfort of my home in Makati, and stayed in a place to live a stress-free life, away from everyone I know. I get lonely too,  but this is what’s best for me now —— to be lost. And maybe, just maybe, be found again. I can’t wait to spend Christmas with the fam bam back in Manila though. I’ll be back on December!!

And for that one question —— I DARE NOT SAY WHO. At least not here… Till the next post!

This year, I wanna celebrate my birthday randomly throughout the month —— it’s all about being SPONTANEOUS!! Aaaand it all started… LAST FRIDAY NIGHT!

Learn to take a break. After an arduous meeting in the morning, fun chill booze night with my friends at W Grill to de-stress. :)

Fancy bumping into Iris! :) It’s her birthday! Happy birthday!! :)

Once again! Matching outfits for the wicked sisters! Teehee. And now, we’re both in PINK! HOT pink!! :)

This is just one of the many (????) celebrations I’ll be having for my birthday month —— and if you’re wondering why, coz THAT’S HOW I ROLL! Heehee.

And just because we’re in a tropical country doesn’t mean we can’t celebrate Fall. So here’s my attempt ——  KNITWEAR! It’s pretty obvious that the temperature’s been pretty cool recently due the INSANE weather… Cool enough to survive wearing something this thick outdoors. I love how it’s a lot like those oversized cozy knits from Topshop. Plus it’s in my FAVE color, Pink. So there. CHEERS TO THE WEEKEND! :)

xx Cardigan: Forever 21| Tank Top: Forever 21| Denim shorts: Forever 21| Belt: Zara|Tights: Leg Love x Kate Torralba| Booties: Zara| Necklace: Kamiseta| Bag: ShiQ xx

So July’s gone —— with regrets, mistakes, and memories made. Still, I’m thankful for all of it. Hopefully, August will be so much better than my July. Again, it’s August. That only means one thing —— T-minus 6 days, I will be a year older. :) First day of August falls on a Monday, my day was bombarded with meetings in the morning. It was such a great idea to meet up with sissy to talk about random things over pizza! I just love starting my week like this! :)

I have a sudden craving for pizza and I did satisfy those by pigging out at Papa Johns!! My new favey —— Seafood Carbonara. So, HELLO ALLERGIES for me today. Boohoo. It was so delish I can’t resist eating ‘em! :)

Pink Grapefruit Italian Soda —— just stir it and VOILA! 

Green Apple Italian Soda —— not so green.

Waffle Fries —— not your ordinary fries!

Super Papa Pizza —— I.DIE

Cravings SOLVED! *BURP*

I also dropby The Distillery Jupiter to claim my FREE bottle of Bacardi Gold! Wheee! Thanks much!!

Outfit shot. Fuss-free dressing on a busy rainy day. Super missed wearing vests! Since the weather is hella insane and chilly, why not wear those cutesy tights? And to complete the look, a dash of accessories and some attitude. :)

So there. August, please be kind to me! :)

xx Oversized vest: Forever 21| Dress: Topshop| Skinny belt: Mango| Necklace: Glitterati| Bangles and Ring: Forever 21| Tights: Forever 21| Booties: Topshop xx

Just a few days till I turn 23… I look back at my birthday eve and here’s what I’ll definitely miss… Birthday salubs with my sister. We have the same birthday, btw. And no I am not the older one (Heck yeah, I get that all the time). She’s 1987. I’m 1988. Let’s do a quick trip to memory lane, shall we? :) That’s me from waaaay back! Montessori days. I’m chubby and KYOOT, I KNOW! Lol.

I remember that I won’t go to school without those SILVER shoes!! :)

Birthday salubs: Circa 2009 Pier One-Embassy

Circa 2010 Pier One-Encore

Aside from the change of haircolor, hairstyle —— more importantly, my sister won’t be joining me this year. It’ll be waaay different. Gawd. I miss her.

Friday. I sorta became a “photographer” that day and here’s one of the few photos I had! I was busy taking photos of the whole event, and it brought me back to my college days (READ: NURSING student days!). Saw some familiar faces as well! ‘Twas fuuuun though. :) The rain can’t and didn’t stop us. The show MUST go on! :) Wearing my 6-inch wedges while roaming around for three hours may have been a mistake, but I always go for FASHION over comfort. That’s just me. Teehee.

Nails done, hair done, everything done! Oh you fancy huh, oh you fancy huh. Color matter most. I would wear any hue that’s cool and hip. Bright colors symbolize a strong personality as well as courage. These are the traits I’d arm myself with in facing another chapter of my life.

Diggin’ my Teal colored nails! Thanks Nail Spa! :)

I found this amazing piece at Kashieca last June, and for a super great price! Oh I love fringe!

Super thanks Sissy Cy for having me. :) ‘Twas a success! :)

With Angelica. Isn’t she a charmer? :)

“Enjoy the life you live now, it could change at any given moment.”

xx Top: Dorothy Perkins| Skirt: Forever 21| Necklace: Kashieca| Shoes: Possibility| Rings: Forever 21 and Cosmopolitan xx

Good to be back. How was everyone’s weekend? It’s the last week for the month of July and I’m currently swamped with workload! Might I add the cuddle weather that makes me wanna stay in bed all day… And just PIG OUT! OH WELL! I just can’t wait till July’s over!! Birthday month comin’ up!! :)

Told you work’s crazy! Teehee. Today’s work ensemble. Leather skirt —— I would’ve fell in love with it more if it had fringe. But hey, it’s still super pretty!

Here’s the necklace I bought at the SuperSale Bazaar last July 17 and I got it for a super great price. I. Am. So. Diggin’. It!!!

Lavender nails c/o NAIL SPA. :) Will change my nail color tomorrow for the event on Friday!

Oh, and thanks much to my client, Pepsi-Cola Philippines for sending me another box of Pepsi products last Monday. And now, its Pepsi Max in can. Suhhhweet!

Well that pretty much sums it up. Enjoy the last week of July! :)

xx Leather skirt: People are People| Tube top: bought in Chatuchak| Cardigan: Forever 21| Clogs: Topshop| Necklace: Glitterati xx